Introducing Me

First blog so i guess ill introduce myself, I'm Rashelle but i go by shelle. I was born on December 25, 1986 which makes me 25 years old. I was born and raised in California, a little bit in quartz hill and some in lake Isabella. I was 22 when i meet my future ex husband on the internet i moved from California to Illinois. After about 6 months of being out in Illinois I married my ex on November 14th 2009 and found out I was pregnant with my daughter Katelyn. To make a long story short my ex was an ass, a controlling ass. As soon as we got married he thought he owned me. I am a very strong female a bit loud mouthed at times, and I've never had a man tell me what to do or what not to do. I quit doing anything fun, I had no friends, and he and his family put down everything about me from what I wore, to how I cooked, to where I was born, to my family, to my tattoos, to my religion, and to my political stance. So when my daughter was about year and half I thought to myself if I was to stay with him it would show her its okay to let a man be like that to you, that its okay to not stand up for yourself. So I started my plan very quietly not telling anyone, I never believed in divorce until it was my only option he was never going to change and i wasn't going to be treated like a door mat anymore. So when our tax return came in I took half told him i needed to move into my own place just to sort thing out. which was half true i needed to move into my own place but it was already sorted out through our two year marriage he always promised to change or try a little bit harder. I knew it was a giant liar, and I Realize I got married because I wanted to have a family I wanted to have someone to love but in all reality I never loved this man, I love what he gave me the best gift ever which is my daughter Katelyn. I had failed relationship after failed relationship in my life but three stuck out Andy I dated on and off for like 6 years, Dan which I dated 2 years, and josh married 2 years. All relationships I pushed myself to stay in because I didn't want to be alone, I wanted to love and be loved in return. Anyways back to it, I got myself a two bedroom apartment about 40 miles from my now ex and I am happier than ever in a new relationship that happened with a man that had been in my life for awhile he was a friend that was there when I needed him the most. He knows the real me and doesn't expect me to be someone I'm not. First relationship that I didn't have to work at, he just fits into my life. What man sees a woman who is a complete mess and a single mom and thinks hey that's the woman i want to be with. He is everything I have ever asked for he is gentle, kind, smart, but the best thing is he is a great dad to his daughter as well as a "step" dad to my daughter. He makes me feels like anything is possible. He holds my hand and looks into my eyes like I'm the only girl. This man makes me laugh when I feel like crying. He is the first man that I loved, that i truly from the bottom of my heart cant live without, makes my heart skip a beat , makes the world seem as if it is standing still, and I know he is "the one". So that's where I am at this point in my life, I have a Wonderful Man (Matthew), Two little beautiful little girls (Ellie and Katelyn) , And our whole lives ahead of us.