Why must we...

Put each other down? From the stranger walking by to the people we call friends. I'm guilty of this, Ive put down friends down to their faces and worst of all behind their back. Talked about strangers as if I knew them. I'm on a couple mommy pages on Facebook, and some recent drama has resulted in these girls calling each other nasty names and worst of bringing their kids in the drama calling them HORRIBLE names. I look back and I wish i could say I'm sorry to so many people i have hurt with my words. calling them name such as fat, c*nt, bit*h, or whatever it may have been even if i dint hurt them just knowing that i was TRYING to hurt them. why is it that hurting other people or putting them down makes us feel better about our selves. I'm guessing its jealousy or hated for the things we see wrong in ourselves. Take my ex husband for example, I left him and started dating another man awhile after we split. I am trying my best to be a co-parent and take his feeling into account knowing it must be hard to be left by your wife and see her move on so quickly with a guy. anyways now he is always putting me down then saying oh im kidding. seriously yesterday he called me a hooker like 5 times in text messages. my boyfriend tries his best to make me feel better saying he is doing it to get a rise outta me but i have to say it does hurt. I can admit i care what other think of me, to a point. I know who I am but i think part of who we are is what other people see in us. like if everyone thinks your a slut eventually your going to start thinking it to. I think we see ourselves in mirrors the media and other paint for us, like i use to think I was pretty but then i start to look at myself in mirrors put up all around and i know im far from it or i use to think i wasn't fat just a bit chunky boy was I wrong. I wish that the world was a little less about  trying to knock other down a level or two. maybe let the world not be so black and white and let everyone be their own color. just a little vent